Thoughts

Start Where You Are and I Am Here Now

I bought both of these books when I realized how badly I was hurt.  I couldn’t access any of my escapes – no Brazilian jiu jitsu, no yoga, long walks hurt, I couldn’t run (not that I enjoy running but it can still work as an escape in a pinch).  It felt like I had lost my social support and my hobbies.  So I tried mindfulness and meditation.  These books and my therapist helped me see my injury as an opportunity to learn, test myself, and explore new coping mechanisms.

So, where am I now?

I had shoulder surgery exactly a week ago.  I am almost off the prescription pain medicine but I’m still taking OTC pain medicine every six hours.  I still can’t do bjj or yoga or walk long distances, but I can do leg and ab workouts and use the recumbent stationary bike.

My relationships are pretty good right now.  People have really shown how much they care since my surgery and I am humbled and grateful.

I am still preoccupied with bjj and I can’t wait to add yoga and strength training back into my life.  I want to improve my strength and flexibility to avoid future injury.  I want to deepen my yoga practice to improve as a person.  I have learned a lot about bjj by not doing it.  I’m starting to see things differently and I hope to keep that perspective when I return.

I can’t wait to get back into helping with the kids bjj class.  And I want to teach yoga.  I want to be a better teacher.  I want to learn how to use yoga for bjj.  I want to help people using both bjj and yoga.  I truly believe they are complimentary: bjj for self-defense and confidence, yoga for inner peace and acceptance.  I just don’t know where to start.

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